Ever since I have become more awake to the spiritual reality and in tune to sensing energy around me, I have been experimenting with the power of my thoughts and the reality of vibrations.
I really truly do believe that food, thoughts, and exercise are powerful! What we eat and whether or not we move our bodies determines at what frequency we vibrate and what energies we will attract. These unseen energies determine what thoughts we will have, either negative or positive as well and our thoughts are extremely powerful, creating for us an experience of either heaven or hell at any given moment in time.
After a steady practice of yoga daily and eating a highly-raw vegan diet for the past year and a half, I stopped. I felt like taking a break and seeing whether or not any of what I was doing really was making as big a difference in my life as I thought it was. I was happy and our life was peaceful. My thoughts were positive most of the time, I felt awake to my true spiritual nature, and I was not controlled by my appetite or gave much value to others opinions about how I was living my life. I felt free.
I decided to stop my yoga practice, eating such high-vibration foods, and meditating/reading/learning, convincing myself that it didn’t make that much difference in my life and maybe I was just too dependent on it. I allowed others opinions of what I was doing to convince me that maybe I was abnormal or “weird.” I feared that maybe my yoga practice was taking too much time out of my day and away from my kids or that maybe I was setting some kind of bad example for them (as yoga is thought of as bad by most Christians and unaccepted in any spiritual sense).
Ever since I stopped, I started eating way more “normal” meals and foods and listening more to the advice and opinions of others. My thoughts became more negative and life seemed so overwhelming. I couldn’t find the time to plan homeschool like I used to because I was being so affected by others opinions of how we were living and their judgements on our lifestyle choices. Everything felt up in the air. I was so confused about what to do, which was such a contrast to the person I was just weeks before. I could tell that my vibration was low, but was also trying to convince myself that I was doing what was “normal” and right by the world.
After a few weeks, I became very depressed and started living at a much lower vibration. I was eating animal foods again and trying to socialize more, even though the interactions I was making were really not very uplifting. In fact, I found them quite draining. I thought that maybe we needed more socialization in our life, so we tried going to a church again, which had a playgroup for the kids where the mom’s would get together and chat. All the while, I knew that I was denying my true feelings and intuition about so many things.
All of this was so not for me.
I ignored my intuition in an attempt to fit in and be normal. I tried to take my kids out for more socialization, but the things these kids would say and the way they would act surprised me. When sitting with the mom’s all they talked about was body image and material things that I found no connection to. I just couldn’t vibe at their level of consciousness, though I tried.
Heaven to me, joy, love and peace, comes from making a happy life for my children and my husband. I strive to take care of myself and eat healthy and maintain my yoga practice, meditation and spiritual study so that I can be the best me that I can be, for them and for the world.
I want my children to look up to me as a healthy example. I know that they are watching me and learning from me what really is true, as they wonder what really matters in life. I decided to stop doing things that are lowering my vibration and causing me to fall into depression. This includes: eating low vibrational foods (animal foods, GMO foods and any foods that are not made by God in nature), fearing what other people think of my lifestyle choices (homeschooling, diet, yoga, spiritual outlook, being a stay-at-home mom), and ignoring and denying my intuition about things.
I believe in vibration. I believe in the spiritual reality that lies behind our senses. I believe that we can and should all be happy and free and follow our own inner truth to love, freedom, and acceptance. These last few months of life experience have taught me that this is all so very true. And although a part of me wishes that I didn’t have to lose my path for a while in order to affirm what I already knew to be true for myself, I am grateful for the lessons that have revealed themselves to me through these learning experiences.
Now, I am on a mission to balance my chakras once again and live in line with my inner truth. I desire to once again raise my vibration and shine my light for all of those whom I come across in life, especially in my home as a wife and mother.
When we chose to live any other way, we deny not only ourselves, but the whole world. Each of us has a part to play and a light to shine, wherever we are and whoever we are with.
Find your center. Raise your vibration. Shine your light.