This past weekend we made pierogies together. Pierogies are something that the whole family enjoys and so I decided to make my own homemade recipe. I have one on my blog for vegan pierogies, but now that we are eating more animal foods, decided to try out a recipe that uses eggs instead of tofu in the dough and butter and cheese with the potatoes in the filling, which I plan on sharing very soon.
As always, we girls have so much fun in the kitchen together! The girls did an awesome job at cutting the dough and pinching perogies. We enjoyed them with some fried onions and sausages!
Other things that we have been enjoying are: red lentil and cauliflower stew, date apple pear muffins (recipe coming soon), Finnish Pulla (cinnamon buns and bread), eggs and toast, and banana pancakes with strawberries and whipped cream. The eating is good around here these days.
Autumn read, while I get the soup on. The girls are both feeling sick and decided to cuddle in their blanket. This is how we have to homeschool often. I like to call our homeschool, “free school,” some days can be so random and chaotic, another reminder that there is no such thing as “normal” or “perfect.”
We also made buns.
Although it is still hard for me to cook and eat meat (it is more like a side dish to me); I have decided to add some animal foods back into our/my life because I feel my body needs it at this time and I am hoping that it will make life easier in terms of meal planning and being able to spend less time cooking and eating, as meal prep is more simple and the animal foods take longer to digest. This is just my experiment and am not sure if this is what I really want for us.
All summer I was eating a high-raw vegan diet and doing a lot of exercising, so now I feel ready to let that go and gain some weight for winter. My husband and I are planning on trying for a new baby sometime soon too, so I want to be sure that I have enough body fat to even be fertile, as I have never been regular. I realized that this is probably unhealthy and I want to feel like a regular woman again. I was down to 105 lbs (which I have never been in my life. other than being a kid). with a body fat of around 12%.
I feel as though my body has needed to slow down for a while, so I am also taking a break from yoga and am going to focus more attention on Serafina, homeschooling the girls and coming up with new recipes, which I LOVE to do. I love my ashtanga practice, but I also know that yoga is not just a physical exercise, but a spiritual practice and that homeschooling, helping Serafina find her words, and being a providing mother and nurturer are all a part of yoga (union with the divine) as well.
I have always struggled with wanting to be vegan for health, spiritual and ethical reasons, but have often felt so isolated from others because of it. I just don’t believe that it could be right spiritually to feel separate from others or fear foods as making one less of a human being, just because they do contain lower vibrations than raw, or living foods. Do we always need to be vibing so high anyway? I believe that it is like the bible states:
There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
Now that we are eating animal foods more regularly, I feel like we can have more of a social life and I have been feeling lonely and isolated from others for a long time now. I miss going to my in-laws for dinner or having family or friends over to share a meal. I miss friends and connection and not having to worry about food or preparing special dishes. This past Sunday we went to church and had breakfast there, as well as had my parents over for a ham for dinner. We had some new experiences and I enjoyed them very much.
Ultimately, I just want to be free and able to be a being of love and freedom, modelling an example to my children that life is wonderful and that we need not fear anything, but be grateful always for the food, friends and family that we do have. Even though those foods might not be the “healthiest” foods, life is about more that being the most healthy, it is all about love; the love and connections that we share with those that we are blessed with in our lives; and that to me should run deeper than any dietary label, religious identity, or anything else.
(Me, a busy mother, teacher and cook! Life can be so exhausting, but I am grateful to God for all that we are blessed to have)